The decision is made

[ACJ]

I spoke to S15 earlier. I haven't seen him for nearly a week what with being away and now D18 not well.

I asked him if he had any credit on his phone. I assumed not as he never answers my TMs or calls. He said no he hadn't. I asked if that was b/c H hadn't given him his pocket money yet. He said he had. I could tell he was holding something back so I made a joke about him spending it all at once on something stupid. He eventually told me that H took him to the disused airfield to have another go at driving. He said he had to pay something towards it. I asked him how much. He then admitted that H had made him pay the entire £15 admission fee b/c he had paid for the petrol to get there!

WTF I was so angry. He has just stopped £188 of my maintenance and yet he is making S15 pay for what should've been a treat. I didn't make him pay for himself when I took him the other week, neither did I charge him petrol money! I was so cross that later I TMd S15 back to say I would give him that money back the next time I saw him. I know I shouldn't have done but it just made my blood boil.

Later I was on the phone to my mum as she had called to see how D18 was. Whilst I was on the phone H called D18 on her mobile and asked her to ask me if I wanted D12 to go stay with him whilst D18 was ill! I said there was no need but if D12 wanted to go that was fine (of course I knew she would say no). According to the doctor D18 has been infectious (without knowing it) for at least 2 weeks so if anyone else is going to get it the damage is probably done already. Is he really so desperate for money that he has to think of ways to take the children off me so that he doesn't have to pay maintenance? He must think I was born yesterday.

I want my fantasy land back I don't like this real world anymore