I finally think things are going to wind down in regards to the D. The earlisest we can get things finalized is the third week of June but it seems as if it is so close that I can taste it. I can't say this website did help me salvage my marriage but once I realized that this marriage is not salvagable, I was able to move on... I was only able to realize that once I gained a perspective which this website helped me with.
I came to the understanding that I can only control myselgf and do things that make people want to be with me. Even after trying to do that to rekindle my M, it failed miserably. I feel liberated to a degree by this experience and I feel that I have learned a great deal about myself and relationships as a whole. The one person that I still feel miserable about is my S. He is going to really only know his parents as separate people. The family that I wanted for him and the home I wanted to provide him is not going to be there and for that I still struggle almost on an everyday basis...
I know I have the future and I can still provide the home that he needs but there will always be something missing that may never be replaced. I will always have that feeling of letting him down but this would be better than lying to him about how a M should be...
Me=29 WAW=25 S=2 "I need a break" = 6/07 Filed = 12/07
