Oh, no!!! I just was talking to H on the phone about some drywall we have to get fixed and at the end of the phone call he said, "I've got to go now I love you! And I said, Bye, love you too!!! like automatically without thinking! What the heck was that??? Weird!!!
Two seconds after he told me he loved me, H then emails me "your cough sounds better, have you applied for any jobs yet"? I emailed back I was with the plumbers all day yesterday and the contractor this am and taking d8 to a fun afternoon at the church today. Another contractor is coming out tomorrow and will probably be here all day! (Not going to leave the kids alone with him or take them job hunting with me). So I told him I plan on job hunting Thurs. and Fri. I told him with my wonderful job experiences & personality, I don't think it should take me long to find a job! Karen
As sad as it sound, I think I am going to go buy, "PS I love you". I saw it at the $1.50 theater and yes I cried but it gave me some hope too. Want to do a virtual movie? kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Kat, yes! Sounds like fun! I think I'm going to netflix it though, I can put it at the top of my queue and they send it out the same day usually and they are only one day away. What's it about??? Is it very sad though? I am a marshmallow and can't stop crying at those kind of movies!
And thank you NoCode. I am not that hopeful at this point, but at least I like myself (I don't think my H can say the same)! Karen
Karen I'm glad to see that you like yourself, that is really a good thing. Your H probably doesn't like himself right now, but you can't fix that, he has to.
Good luck with your job search and don't lose hope yet, see where things take you and act when you need to and don't when there is no need to.
Have a great day, Corey
M:39 H:39 K:S14;D8 T:22yr M:15yrs S:12/28/07 EA/PA 3/14/08 OW preg 11/17/08 born 12/12/08 his ~~~~~~~ Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option
Karen, I think I was just sad so I cried more than I might have otherwise. It does put life kind of in prospective because it is about getting on with your life after a sudden loss. Let me know when you get it. kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
I think I had another good night DBing last night. I did make dinner and shared with H, which I was feeling guilty about doing. But since not cooking enough was one of the things H used to be upset about, I am now rationalizing that cooking every night is a 180 for me! D8 and I then made brownies and H and everyone had those of course! Friendly as usual with H, but after dinner I went upstairs & worked out. After a quick brownie break I went to bed early as I was tired & to let H have the kids alone (and my LRT of course).
The contractor is coming this morning so I woke up and have already done an hour of housework, dishes, and laundry! H has called me twice. Once at 8:30 to see if the contractor was here, and then a 2nd time to let me know he'd be here at 10. Does anyone else find that suspicious? And he emails me frequently now too, way more communication than we've ever had before! But yet he still is asking me for financial figures for a divorce, so I can't figure it out! Karen
What the heck was that??? Weird!!! 
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