~ok so my rantings from before helped clear my mind and I am still feeling like I am desperately looking for a solution.
So I calmed my thoughts down and read Chapter 13 in DR and have come to real big realization as much as I want to drag my feet or say he is being ridiculous.... I must appreciate his honesty and make a commitment to be solution oriented.I am proud of myself for not stewing and waiting. I ML to him last nite and this morning and he enjoyed it. I guess he was just sitting back and waiting to see what I would do.....
I also know this is one of the Main Reasons he left to begin with and he has had so may affairs also.... I am not taking the blame entirely and I also do not want to feel like if I do not give him this he will always cheat... I do need to work thru those remnants of pain and I also need to start a Journal like I had during Seperation and just see what works and what doesnt. He stopped by before to say hi and he seems to be content......................
I guess I did take it personally when I feel like I am doing good and things are going well.
I have had time to sit back and see that him telling me this and as much as it stings will help me to move forward. Thankfully I can take it and use it. I did tell him to tell me when I wasnt filling him up like he needs.......
It seems simple and maybe it is...maybe I just make it complicated.....
