Well, I haven't called him except to leave that voice message to tell her to never contact me again. I would love to just call & talk to him but I know I can't. Maybe she realizes that he really did love me. Even after he told me he wanted a D he did say that he didn't know what love was until he met me.
When he was here on 4/11 & 4/12/08, H expected the grass to be grown up & everything look bad, b/c we worked together planting flowers & working in the yard. I had the inside & outside looking great, flowers planted, yard mowed. He asked if my Dad came & helped me, I told him no that I did it myself. He seemed surprised. H's SIL told me that he told them that I would loose the house & have to move back home with my parents. I'll show him! I tried to be upbeat & pleasant around him. He did have his guard up.
OW gave him a chain to wear, I always wanted to get him one but he didn't want one b/c it would pull the hairs, so I asked him about it & said "you never wanted one", he said "it was a gift", I said "Yeah" & he did look at me funny like he was saying don't start. Nothing else was said. Since he has been around her he is shaving his chest & back hairs, I knew everytime before he was going to see her because he would shave. The hairy chest & back didn't bother me, so I guess he is still pretending with her.
We had so many good memories together!!! We went thru pictures & that just brought them all back. He did take a few of me & him together at the CMA Awards & also of he & I in our swim suits on the beach, I think he took one of me & the dogs. He got a lot of himself in the pictures that he looked good in & was skinny & looked younger. He made the comment at how young he look & not old like he is now. I just want him to wake up so bad!!!!!!! He also saw a few pictures of me & made the comment on several of them that it was a good picture of me. That made me feel good, but he didn't take those. We looked at honeymoon pictures & all of our trips together, so sad & so many memories. I hope this has jogged his memory a little but so far he is not acting like it. And of course he is still lovey dovey with OW.
On 4/12/08 is when his brother, SIL & son came to help him move. My friend was with me. I was very upbeat the whole day.
He did get a little snippy with me a couple of times & right at the end of the day b/c he was leaving stuff he should take & I can't get rid of that stuff by myself, I told him lets not do this right at the end, I teared up a little bit.
I couldn't help it, I did break down when he left. He hugged me & said "Have a nice life" & I was crying, he hugged me again & I told him, "I really did love you" he wished me good luck & I said the same thing. I said I hope we can be friends, he nodded his head, so who knows. He went to the dogs & hugged them & told them he loved them, then before he walked out I hugged him & said "I told myself I wasn't going to cry" he left & my friend saw him, she thought he wiped a tears from his eye, so I don't know if that was b/c of me or b/c of the dogs. He knows he will probably never see one of them again.
The next day his son came back to get a few things that his Dad had given him & he asked me if I was going to sell the house. I told him no that I planned on staying here, so I have a feeling my H told him to find out. He got in a hurry & left some things here that I'm sure he will eventually want. We'll see.
My friend thinks in a few months when this wears off with OW that he will be calling me. I just don't know for sure.
I really broke down & cried after he left but he didn't see that. I'm not really sure how I did but my friend thought I handled things pretty well while they were all here considering all that I've been through & as snippy as he got with me a couple of times. I wish I had not cried but I just couldn't help it.
On 4/14/08 was when OW sent that email. That made me so mad too, everytime I think about it! I want to say something to her but I won't. I know he turned in his Nashville cell phone number & has a TX number now. I asked him for it & he gave it to me so she may not have known that he gave me that number. Just goes to show what kind of bitc... she really is. I hope he will see that soon!!!! I don't think she will be faithful to him & he can be jealous or he was with me anyway, she likes to party & he is ok with that at times. I did find out they are renting a house & didn't buy.
