Changing myself for myself

[Firekeeper]

JTB, hi)

for me it is more about stopping myself from being too friendly, too involved. and when i am distant to take away the suffering look from my face that i had yesterday, well it was the 1st day - i think i am better now. i wrote here yesterday, and already today, as well as read forums a lot - saturated myself w/it

and then there is care, help, support from you JTB, Bworl, Jeff, breaton, Purr, BND, IMP others. grateful for that, thank you))))))))

JTB, you asked me a good question on what i want to gain. i want to do the right thing. there is two parts to it - let h go as Bworl said and to change myself. and i think that i have a better grasp how to change myself in a relationship than in my job/career life but without the latter i will not be happy. so actually it my biggest challenge right now.

actually, i have another conversation to ponder about the relationship that i am so tempted to get involved in, but it is not a priority right now and can be put on back burner