Thanks Gypsy. I needed that this morning. I am having a rough day. I'm not even sure what it is. I just can't seem to stop crying. H's grandmother called, and we talked for quite a while. She really feels like once H's mind is made up, that is it. He has decided. He is not the type of person to second guess himself. She feels like the fact that he hasn't even seen an attorney is an indication that he has not made up his mind. She said, "There is always hope for you guys as long as he has not filed." She is the first person IRL to say that to me. It made me cry. It seems like every day that goes by I lose a little more faith in him. I just don't know what is going through his head right now. His grandmother did say that with everything going on with his brother right now, he has a heavy burden to bear at work and with his family. She said she doesn't think he even has an opportunity to focus on our current sitch because he is so wrapped up in all this crap with his brother. I hate that I can't be there for him with this, but I just can't. He doesn't want my help. Hopefully, I will settle down a bit this morning.
