hey you...




I was wondering that too, what Sage said, about focusing on the A when things are good.

That's something I do in a way, too. When things are good, it's like I get scared that I'm *missing* something and start digging up crud to get angry about? I think it comes from being scared of getting duped again. Like, I believed Mat would be *this* or be *that*, and he wasn't and I felt tricked by the whole thing. I dunno... once bitten, twice shy.


Okay.... three positives....
(today, they're about me

1. I thought long and hard about why I still feel resistance to accepting my M for what it is. I came up with several answers, many having to do with my childhood which gave me my aloofness with people (because they don't really care and they just leave eventually anyway.) This is really huge and I'm looking forward to expounding on these thoughts.

2. I kicked my house's butt yesterday. Mowed grass, 6 loads of laundry, two sick kids, dishes, lunches... I mean, Superwoman? Look Out!

3. Tomorrow is D's 5th birthday... we're getting her a new swing set! (okay, that one's not about me)



g'nite ll