ok I never did get around to my three positives for today...
1. went to see finding nemo..with the kiddos..one of my friends and her son who is my sons friend..
2. h got home before 7...
3. this evening after putting dd to bed I went out into the yard and layed on the hammock while h and son worked int the "construction area" I curled over and got comfortable...h saw me and asked if I was alright..actually came all the way over and asked if I was ok..just tired I said...why don't you go get a blanket so the bugs don't eat you...cause then I'd fall asleep says I. Nice that he noticed me...nice that he was concerned for me..just nice.
I suppose I should stop thinking I'm being manipulated here..h is not a bad man..h is not a manipulator..h would not have come home if he intended to continue with ow...h would not stay home if he were still with ow..h actually never really was with ow..sure they had an innapropriate friendship...sure he grew feelings for her..contemplated being with her....and sure he left me..but it wasn't for her she was just a reason among reasons..
