I have to let go of h

[sage]

8.drum roll please!!!!! in bed last night out of no where h kisses me on the forehead and then says...dum da da dum!! I love you!!!

funny thing is that thoughts of ow popped into my head last night...the questions again of is h calling her?? did h call her today??

Did these thoughts come before or after the ILY? Just curious...I'm starting to see a pattern in myself where when things get TOO good, I start focusing on OW more...in my case, I think it's the fear that I'm going to let down my guard, get cozy in my wonderful life and love and whammo...! Normal (????? or so I tell myself) fears, I think.

Sage