thanks lwb, your sweet. some days i don't think i can keep it together. ive had chest pains for two days, its just probably stress. its so hard for me, i don't like to show weakness to anybody (except you guys )... my h knows how I haven't been feeling, doesn't comment on it at all, i feel as if im drifting off somewhere else. I wish i could just take my kids and go. But i can't they would be so devastated.
They are sleeping right now, like babies... I can't sleep because im worried about money.. h was supposes to get paid from the job tonight and didn't now i have to worry about calling the bank tomorrow to cover my checks.. sometimes i think he thinks Im full of crap, i told him that it was important for him to get the money.. it pisses me off to know end.
Between money and his attitude, i just don't know.. i guess im in a depression mode now.
Thanks for thinking of me.
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
)... my h knows how I haven't been feeling, doesn't comment on it at all, i feel as if im drifting off somewhere else. I wish i could just take my kids and go. But i can't they would be so devastated. 
