Quote: how to love LL the way she wants to be loved...
1.plan time to spend with her..not with the tv but with her. 2.laugh with her... 3.tell her a funny story about your day.. 4.tell her something about your day that pissed you off.. 5.tell her something that you wouldn't tell just anyone.. 6.hug her (like you mean it even if it's just that you yourself need a hug) 7.kiss her.... 8.tell her you love her...
yesterday...
1. h came home early (sad that 3:30 on a saturday is early but I'll take it) 2. don't know if we laughed but it was a nice day. even though it was raining 3. nothing funny, but h did tell me about his day 4. h did let me know that he got a call from the original person who was to do the stump work and it annoyed him that he wouldn't be doing it...also h was annoyed at another person messing with his schedule..and yet another "issue". 5. I suppose that "issue" is something he's not telling just anyone about...(it concerns an employee) 6. I think I got a hug but I'm not feeling in need of one, so we'll let it go. 7. LL got a tad more than just a kiss last night! 8.drum roll please!!!!! in bed last night out of no where h kisses me on the forehead and then says...dum da da dum!! I love you!!!
funny thing is that thoughts of ow popped into my head last night...the questions again of is h calling her?? did h call her today?? something so silly as h not eating his lunch (even though he gave pretty valid reason for not..was busy and then was disgusted with how his day was going) can make me think..sure you didn't eat the lunch I made you cause you went and met her for lunch...would h really be that stupid...he knows that I will not accept it..if he were to spend time with her and get caught he'd have no second chance..this already is his second chance..it's obvious that he loves his kids and this house so why would he risk loosing it all..not to mention that he'd loose me too?? I don't think he would but the thoughts are still there. bummer! other than a few tears after our "encounter" (wich for some reason is not totally abnormal for me even before the sit) I said nothing about it...
ok enough of being pulled into that neg world...
three positives for today???
1. h took son with him for a ride to pick up some wood from a job site..(makes me feel better when he's got son with him, plus it gives me a little break)
2. I really love the new paint in the master bath...trying to take advantage of the time while dd naps to start painting the bedroom.
