Listen to me.. Stop.. Stop trying to figure it out.. Stop trying to reason it out.. Stop trying to forgive him..
You are trying to take on way too much.. You mind is running away.
You cannot detach this way.. I am telling you right now.. its going to pull you back in. I am not a physic... I don't need to be.. I have watched myself and some really strong people walk right back into it.
Remember "Busy Work"? This is the key. Find something outside of your comfort zone to do. Take 1/2 of the energy you are using and put into thinking outside the box you will be so much better off.
If you keep this up.. I can tell you exactly where you will be 1 week from now.. I could write it out.
Think small. Baby steps all around. The necklace, not txting him, the fun time at the physic. Blindsided1 you need to focus on that.. as the weeks pass.. it is going to get harder the quicker you can control this within yourself.. the better.
Forgiveness has so many things that go along with it. You are nowhere close. Doing the Fast-Forgive is no more effective than what you are doing now.
If you listen to 1 thing.. Listen to this.. STOP. This is him taking control of your life. Don't let him take you away. Please!!
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
