I just have to face that I still have a long way to go. I am still prone to making mistakes and out-right bone-headed gaffs, even when I think I am focused on the task at hand.
As for my S's, I wonder sometimes if my need to be in their lives is really for the right reasons. Am I doing it for them or for me? I know they love me, and they do need their father. But am I being selfish in seeking to claim 50-percent of their time and custody, when they are obviously more comfortable with their mother? Or when they don't show me enough respect? (Sometimes I get the feeling they think of me as a camp counselor or something , rather than their parent.)
I don't expect to be perfect, but I often wonder if I am even adequate for the task. I just want the best for S7 and S3, and I fall short of that.
