Thank you for posting your document, although my H never put quite like that, I believe he was/is feeling the same way. It so difficult and the waiting unbearable. It has been 1 1/2 years for me now although H and I communicate often and I feel as though he is my bestfriend. He does sweet things for me which confuses me even more, does he do it because we are friend and I am the mother of his son or does he still care for me??