Surprisingly I had a better day than expected, considering I was in such a state this morning. I went to lunch with my mum, my sister and her baby son. He is gorgeous and a good distraction (but a part of me can't help but think-I may not now get to have a family with H! Stupid I know). I then took our dog out for a walk along the river for an hour and a half. The sun was shining, the river was glistening, people were out enjoying the weather and it was just lovely. The dog had a paddle in the river too which he very much enjoyed, and is whacked out now!
I have been thinking of things that I would like to do for me. The problem is we are in such a financial mess at the minute and a lot of my ideas cost money. Plus I live in a small town with not many resources.
Can anyone suggest what they've done to GAL to give me any ideas?? To be honest, my interests have always been fairly low key- I love watching films, reading, browsing internet and walking dog. I want to change but I'm not sure what I want to do!
My biggie is that I would love to go travelling, have wanted to go since leaving school, but it was something H always said we could do later. He even bought it up in one of our break up chats-that he thought that having been together so long we have held each other back in certain areas of our individual lives, which I tend to agree with (although obviously at the time we didnt see it as holding each other back, we were planning a future). H said he always feels bad that I didnt get to travel.
I am thinking that now may be the time to do something big like this. Maybe not a round the world adventure, but perhaps go away for a couple of months. Obviously that depends on our financial situation once the house is sold.
Thanks again
Lea xxx
Me-26 H-27 T-10 years M-20 months First bomb-Feb 07 Second bomb-March 08
