Oh, yes, they would definitely be better off with your W instead of you! Of course not!
Missing the wedding by less than an hour doesn't sound so bad to me. Not a wedding, but we were trying to go to some fun activity one Saturday and I had us all show up one WEEK early! Oops! Maybe I shouldn't be a mom either do you think??? I just had to laugh at myself!!! I know it had to be so upsetting though to miss the baptism, but I think you will never be late for anything like that! I try to look at mistakes as learning experiences (like when I messed up in the play & forgot my words and didn't say anything for about 30 seconds (but it seemed like 30 hours). Well, I won't do that again (I won't)!!! You shouldn't be so hard on yourself when you make mistakes--that's one thing I've learned with time I guess. I know I read in one of the DR or DB or Change your Life books that everyone will have setbacks and something like 2 or 3 steps forward, one back or something like that, but the point being that you are still making progress even if you aren't always perfect?
You know, I have kids that are hyperactive with SI too, and it's not easy sometimes, but we all have those moments where are kids are a bit out of control. I think that is cool that you appreciate how hard parenting kids can be--my H has never appreciated my taking care of the kids or homeschooling them you know--and I think that is great that you know how challenging it can be sometimes, but of course also they can be the greatest, coolest kids too! I think they are mad at their dad lately, but have really been showing me the love (I guess b/c they realize I am the stable parent that will always be there for them or something like that.) I'm sure it won't last, but I'm enjoying it for the moment anyway.
One side effect of my H moving out besides the peace and less craziness, is that the kids and I have really grown close, and I think you will always have a special bond with your kids too also.
Of course not! 
I know it had to be so upsetting though to miss the baptism, but I think you will never be late for anything like that! I try to look at mistakes as learning experiences (like when I messed up in the play & forgot my words and didn't say anything for about 30 seconds (but it seemed like 30 hours). Well, I won't do that again (I won't)!!! You shouldn't be so hard on yourself when you make mistakes--that's one thing I've learned with time I guess. I know I read in one of the DR or DB or Change your Life books that everyone will have setbacks and something like 2 or 3 steps forward, one back or something like that, but the point being that you are still making progress even if you aren't always perfect? 
