Pregnant and heading for acceptance #2

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Forrest - you aren't confusing me at all. That makes complete sense and as a matter of fact, I didn't text him back. I read the txt msg about midnight. There is a read reply feature so I held off on reading it so he wouldn't know I read it. If I look at the message menu I can read the first 3 or 4 words that's how I knew it was about the classe. Anyway, I finally opened the message about 3 hours after he sent it, but I didn't respond. I just figured I would speak to him on Sunday. Well, lo and behold about 45 minutes after I read the text H calls. It startled me because it was so late. He asked what I was doing, did I get his text, why didn't I call him back? I just said that I did get the text but not until late and I thought he might be asleep so I didn't want to disturb him. He said that I could have just texted him back. So, we talked about the classes. And, a couple other things. Then I said "Well, I'm going to go to bed now" and he said "ok, well I guess I'll just see you on Tuesday then" and I said "see you then" hung up and haven't heard from him again nor have I initiated any communication.

GM - well, my psychic adventure was very interesting. She said a couple things, first she asked if I was having twins and I said no it was a little girl. She said that's interesting I see one of both genders right on top of each other. She said that she shows me getting prego again right after the birth of Kendall. I asked her about my M, she said that he is going to come around that he is dealing with issues of not feeling worthy of being happy and he is running away from the very thing that will make him happy (me and baby). I told her that I didn't feel that he was going to come home and she said she believes that he will. I told her near the end that he was with someone else and she said don't worry, she's like the television being on... only a distraction. So, it was interesting. I take everything with a grain of salt, but I must say that the girl and then a boy right away prediction really struck a nerve because for some reason the last few months I keep thinking that I am going to get prego again real soon with a boy. I don't know maybe wishful thinking. As far as H coming home and OW being a distraction, I guess those are pretty general statements. So, we'll see. It's all for entertainment, right? Although, she was dead on with a lot of things last time I saw her in December.

ST - I have not taken my rings off for that very reason. I DO still believe in my M and I don't really want to take them off. However, I do feel that I am starting to retain some water and they are getting a little snug. I am probably going to have to take them off soon. I don't want to wear them on a chain for fear that I may lose them. So, what I DID do was a pulled out a little heart pendant that my H gave me about a year before he proposed. It is my favorite necklace. He gave it to me to wear until he could afford an engagment ring, he said. I haven't worn it in a long time because the chain gets caught in my hair. But, the pendant hold a lot of sentimental value for me. So, on Sunday, I bought a new chain and I put the heart on it and that is what I will wear once my rings don't fit. Once I take my rings off, I don't know how I will feel about putting them back on. I guess that is a bridge I will have to cross when I get there. The psychic thing was for fun, but she said a lot of good things and if it IS a self fulfilling prophecy, I'll take it. I would love to have another baby (boy), my H to come home, and OW to be JUST a distraction.