Real life's getting more like fiction each day....

[Starshyne]

See I told you that you wouldn't like what I did this weekend. How come some people are told that they are detatching and everything while their S is having an affair and others are told that they are allowing their S to be cake eaters and they need to quit?

I know my H has it made. I know that I am allowing it most of the time. It is like something in me can't control it. I have been taking care of him for 7 years. When he left to be with the OW in January, I talked to her on the phone. What do you think I asked her? I asked her to take care of my H. He needs help doing things and I wanted to make sure that she would help him. How messed up was that?

I have been slowly giving him responsibility. He is paying the bills in his name, doing his own paperwork, his own laundry, picking up after himself and a few other things. I know there is more that I need to do.

I paid for the movie and he paid for the dinner. I really had a nice time out with him this weekend and even got to see my old husband return many times.

I am going to try to let him have his way but not bother him. I haven't really done that yet. Maybe if he sees that I don't seem to care about where he is, there will be some change. It is worth a try.

I have been thinking about that hotel. The Holiday Inn here in town has a hot tub. Doesn't that sound nice? I think they also have Kareokee, which I love to do! I will need to pick a night and I might as well stay there. It might be a little more expensive than other hotels, but the hot tub sounds so nice.

Still am meeting with the lawyer. I don't think H realizes that I am doing this. Should I tell him tonight??

Sara