this m will be over in 5 years or less...no it may not end in d..but sadly we will end up one of those couples who are simply together for the sake of the kids...will I have an affair..can't say..opportunity isn't knocking yet...would it change anything in the r...certainly not...not as if the affections of another would distract me from h...and not as if h would even notice a change...will h have another affair...who knows...at this point who cares...maybe he should....one of us should be happy..why not him...h is so ignorant that he even passes up make up sex...I sleep on the couch...h doesn't care...I don't know what the hell kind of a r h is looking for but from the feel of it I think he's just looking for a "wife" a maid..someone to do the dishes...cook..clean...take care of the kids..and be around for the rare occassion that he wants to have sex...wtf am I doing here???? I'm tired of being called a basket case...I'm tired of being told I'm nuts...I'm tired of feeling like I don't matter..f him...I matter more than he does in this family!!!
I'm tired and I'm pissed off as usual...and now h is asleep in my bed!!! and I don't want to go there but I don't want to sleep on the couch either!!!!
why is he so damn stubborn...
why the hell did he even come home...this certainly is not what a r is supposed to be!!!
