That's funny that he said almost the same thing about wanting some time to himself.
Yes Michelle, you usually are right
Thanks Yoyo. I just don't know if I will ever feel completely comfortable with H again. It feels like I will always have my gaurd up. I know, we have come a long way. When I think about how things were with us back before Thanksgiving...I cringe.
Patience is the hardest part for me. I just want to get on with my life one way or another. Another piece of this puzzle is that I am living with my mom. I love her to death...and I am sure this is no picnic for her either...but I feel like I am in highschool again. I haven't lived at home or even in this town for 10 years, so it is a huge adjustment. I really need a place of my own, but until the house sells I can't afford it. I am really resenting H for having his own apartment and not helping me with the house. It isn't fair...but I guess life isn't fair.
I do have things to do Yoyo and I do a pretty good job at keeping myself busy. I think that is part of my problem too. I see how much less stressed I am without H. To be honest, I have more fun without him because he is cynical, bitter, and depressing!
Anyway, I am ok...I am just confused myself. I worry sometimes that H is just working on it to prove to me that he isn't a complete jackass...and not because he really wants to work it out.
