Quote: All I can say for you, LL, is that if you’re too tired to try anymore, maybe you really have to stop trying. Just don’t burn any bridges, OK?
no desire to burn any bridges...just a desire to start living my life and not giving a damn any more that h is too busy to live that life with me..my only worry is the fact that I do want a male companion..I deservre a male companion..and not one that I should have to wait for...I am tired of waiting for h to not be busy...I waited and waited and become ok with waiting as hey I could easily ocuppy my time and fill my life with my children..but this sit has changed that....h made it known to me that I wasn't just waiting for him to not be busy with work..that I was waiting for him to sort out his "in love" feelings for another woman...while I thought he was out working hard all day he was spending time with her...grantide he will say the time he spent with her didn't effect the time he got home..but still...he was spending qt with another woman while I sat at home with his children (well then one child preg with the second) waiting for him to spend time with us...only to have him fall asleep...
now h is doing much the same thing...is it because he's working hard all day..is it because he's seeing her during the day?? I don't know...
thing is I can walk out the door as soon as he walks in...what time he walks in is unknown to me..could be 6 could be 7 could be 8...I never know...but I can leave when he gets here...oh as long as I give him time to get settled in...doesn't matter to him if I go out cause well...he's asleep anyway and would be happy to have me out doing what I want rather than sitting here watching him sleep...but then comes the trouble...LL will eventually meet someone who does have the energy to talk to her..to laugh with her..to live life with her...and then what..LL says no you must live in the stuffed boring life caring for your children and being there for your sleeping h because that's just the way it is???
there is not much here for me...
I have my home... I have my children... h just sleeps here!!
