H is Having Affair after all - Part 2

[Evie]

Thanks Saffie & Seek.

I am glad you replied saffie - thank you, you have been perceptive before.

I'm confused now and don't know what to think.

I do believe that his actions are 'not' speaking to me. I so wanted to believe he was peeking out of his cave, he does hate confrontation.

Saffie - i agree he didn't give me the opportunity to sit down and discuss the issues. I think your right about him parenting the girls been a problem to him. When i have tried to talk to him before about this or say to him that you took us all on willingly, what if the girls didn't have a dad? he shuts down, he won't talk about it.

I still want to acknowledge that email. I never seem to do that I always prepare these replies and never send them. Why shouldn't he get a reply, reiterating a lot of what you point out Saffie?

The thing that upsets me alot, is the amount of time they seem to be able to spend together and that he prefers her to me!!
I think he is still seeing her.

Why does he blame me for the things that went wrong, is he not capable of seeing that the things are everyday problems that ALL couples face? I have lost count of the amount of people who have said they have said this too H. H just says the spark has gone. OK it's not lustful like it used to be, but why cant he see that it never stays like that, that love matures and yiu have to mature and stick with the problems. Its just so unfair. I agree with what he is saying, but it takes two and it would take two to work it out. I just wish he could see this.

I wish I could say enough is enough and walk away, but I can't at the moment and it is completely doing my head in. I go to sleep thinking about and its my first thought on waking. WIll this heartache ever end?