Feeling down and discouraged

[Abbey]

In MC? I don't know what that is... the midlife crisis forum?

He's part in MLC I believe,... and partly just gone wacko... abducted by aliens etc.

I did get a call about 6ish... met for a quick dinner and he even suggested a "movie" afterwards, but we were both tired I think from the weekend. Me emotionally, him through how much "work" he's piled on himself. We decided to pass on the movie, but he indicated there was one that he would like to see next time.

It was pleasant, non eventful (other than noticing he changes his mind all the time. One minute he wanted to know what I didn't want him to throw out and then seemed surprised at the things I listed as things I left as "decorations"... and that I would think he would through that kind of stuff out. *shrug*)

The hug when he met me was tight and friendly... saying goodbye seemed a little awkward if I'm being honest... he seemed a little down when he walked away. Maybe the loneliness for him will sink in sooner too.

We talked about our week and he said he'd talk to me midweek. (even asked about my plans for the week.)

Just seems so strange to love someone this badly, and yet still want to wack them on the head to smarten them up... wake them up.

MY T and I have a deal, I must go "out" at least once a day... not to coop myself up at home etc.

Today, I continue with me "job-courses"... and I'm going out to buy a lamp. Hey... it's something to do.

Abbey