Thanks One Day. Its stupid because I realised that watching the DVD would hurt me but I did it anyway.
I sent one last text to him saying:
'I'm sorry for those texts. Watching the DVD made me feel very close to you again. It reminded me of what we had and its difficult to accept you don't want it anymore. I will leave you alone now. Although I do need your advice on the money situation when you've got a mo as its a mess and I don't know what to do'.
(We're having some financial difficulties and living apart is even more expensive and we've got bills this week that need to be paid.)
I am going to have a shower now(sitting in my dressing gown at mo which is probably adding to my depressed mood). I will take the dog out for a long walk this afternoon and try and cheer myself up.
Thanks for replying it has really helped
Lea xxx
Me-26 H-27 T-10 years M-20 months First bomb-Feb 07 Second bomb-March 08