Kris, This isn't a very fun ride, is it? I totally understand where you are coming from with the trust issue, it's hard to trust them until they make themselves totally transparent. My H isn't there yet either.
I do see great strides in your relationship. I do think your H is trying to come back, but he is still in his fog even though it's not quite as thick as it was.
Patience has always been such a hard thing for me, but take it from me, your patience will be tried and tried again during all of this. I don't think right now is the time for you to throw in the towel, I think he is trying, but he isn't quite there yet.
I think what you need to do right now is to find something that will take your mind off of him. Let him come to you, believe me I know how darn hard this is, but I'm just speaking from past mistakes. Do you have a hobby, friends you could do things with, maybe a good book or movie? Find something to occupy your time.
Give him time to miss you. He'll call you...
Hugs, Yoyo
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon