Today my Husband finally met up with me. We have not seen each other in over two months since our third try at our M (that only lasted a week). He has been contacting me for over a week through text messages to try and get together with me. I kept telling him it needs to be face to face & not over the phone.
We finally got together to walk the dog today and he said he would like to try and give our M another shot. He apologized for many things and said he knows he needs to rebuild my trust and he knows he can. I just listened to him, then I told him I need some time to think about this and that I am open to the idea but we would need to start as just friends.
He asked me for a hug and I accepted. He was very soft kind and gentle with me and understood that I am fragile and have opened myself up to him before only to get crushed.
We planned to walk the dog a few times during the week to get our friendship started. I told him to text me when he is ready.
I hope and pray that this is gonna be for good this time. I dont know if I can handle getting all close to him again - then have him change his mind. I am gonna go very slowly and keep my self respect on the front burner all the while. If I dont think he is serious enough, then we will not move on to dating. If he does show he is working at us, then I will give dating a shot.
