Never made it to church today. WW said she would stay with D's and D11's friend. The did not want to go to church. After I got ready for church, I remembered that service started 45 minutes earlier than usual. By the time I would have left to get there, I would have missed over an hour. Started to watch Joel Osteen with WW. He talked about embracing change. Ugh. Just my luck. A message that WW will skew to her liking. He talked about changes that happen in our lives. Work, relationships, how God stirs things up when all seems stagnant. Great. I can just see her taking it in. Moving on. Things change for the better. Welcoming a new season. Why were we watching this. I could see it in my sitch if she leaves me. But not in her sitch. I could see her starting to tear up. She must believe God put OM in her life. No matter what people think.
After the show, I cant hold it in. I ask her how she took the sermon. She says that change is good. I reply that change is good. I refer to her losing her job last July. The one that she worked with the single ho that taught her Myspace and going out and changed how she dressed and music she listened (I didnt say the last part to her, but she understood). WW agreed. It was better to get away from that job, as all the sudden her coworker she thought was her friend, was being mean to her for some reason. I refered to my losing my job of 19 years in 2004. It led to a much better job that I have now. Change can always be better. I tell her that God is even stirring things up between us. Yes, we were stagnant and He has stirred things up. We have changed and for the better. I am still changing, I tell her. He is still working on us. I tell her that I know that she is thinking that God has put people in our path. I tell her to remember one thing. Even Pastor has mentioned it. We know when it is God that has put things in our lives, because it will never go against biblical principal. He will never put things or have us do things that go against the teaching of the bible. WW is quiet. I end there. A little later we discuss what we are going to do for the day. I mention going back to the carnival for the last day. We go. Pick up some take away Chinese and I am telling her that the I really like the plants that she has gotten. I did not get any food for myself, so WW asks if I want to share with her. We share a little. She talks to me about what they are and tells me about the ones outside.
We have a blast at the carnival and we are riding all sorts of rides. I am not a ride person, but I am riding more rides than I have in 20 years. WW rides some rides I never would have thought. I am proud of her. She is so full of life. I see her suprised at me for riding some.
At home, we are winding down. WW and I try to nap on sofa. I wake up after a while and WW is making funnel cakes as we did not buy any today. She suggests dinner and I tell her I will do it. She lays down for nap with D6.
Another good day to me. I know she hears me. I just don't know if she listens.
I will keep up my faith, hope, love and kindness.
Me 47, WW 38 SS18, D15, D10
Good Bye Girl. No longer SAYING she's moving out. GBG moved out 8-1-08
"I have now decided to enjoy life instead of figure it out."
