It's BFM - I'm just logged in under FW's name right now and didn't feel like logging him off and me back on.
Anyway, to answer your question. FW never really acted like it was any big deal to leave our house when he would go, but he told me after he came back that there were many times that he would be crying before he even reached the end of the driveway.
He has said that he missed us, missed the house, missed the dogs, but felt that he had done so much damage that there was no way he could come back.
He felt that he needed to go through with the divorce because of all the damage he had caused and just get it all behind us.
He never acted as if he hated to leave until the very end right before he came home.
Sorry it took me so long to get back to you. I'm just now seeing the thread since our internet at work is not being seriously monitored and I seldom get on from home.
BFM
"When one door closes, another opens. But we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us." - Helen Keller
