We had a couple of instances this week of the old poor communication problems between W and I. I'm not going to go into the details suffice to say that a big part of the problem is that we don't make our intentions clear to each other. Actually the prime example was I asked W during the day could we have an "early night" to which she replied yes but made no further mention of it. Come bed time, I kind of ambled about before coming up to bed at a reasonable time, W was already in bed so I went to the bath room to shower and freshen up. When I returned to the bed room W was fast asleep. Well I just though another opportunity missed and went to bed.
In the morning I noticed W had gone to bed with no panties, her sign that she was available to ML however I missed the sign.(Dam!!) I asked W about this and she said she was ready but because I wasn't in bed early she thought I had lost interest in ML. (me... never !!!) in fact I though she wasn't interested but I didn't make a fuss. Anyway I've made a mental note now, and it boils down to me taking the lead in such matters, making sure she knows my intentions at all times. Hey maybe even add a bit of romance.
Last night W illustrated how sensitive she can be to things I say. We were at a party for a family friend, we were just listening to the music when the DJ played "Guilty" by Barbara Striesend, and I said to W that this track if from a fantastic album, and every woman should listen to it. Well W jumped back and laid into me verbally saying that I was having a go at her for things that had happened in the past. When I asked her what she meant by this, she said me asking her to listen to an album titled "Guilty" and apparently during the previous week I made some quip to W parents that if W had her way that I would have been out of the house a long time ago. Well I assured W that I wasn't raking things up but since we haven't had closure on events and we hadn't discussed things then she was always going to be on edge reading negative things into what I say, and the only way to get past this is to discuss matters and put them to bed. W kinda mumbled a half-hearted yes. I also said to her that there's no way I can sanity check everything I say before I say it and also I didn't want any no go areas in conversation, I mean I can't use the word guilty in case it upsets her. Anyway W asks me if we are still ok, I said yes as far as I'm concerned there was no problem.
Actually, I spent some time at the party speaking to W cousins and they were telling me how surprised they were when W use to visit their town (where she met OM) without me and they were always asking for me cos they hadn't seen me in years. Actually this chat filled in some blanks in that none of the relatives over there knew about W and OM, but I guess that doesn't matter now. The main thing that I got was that W's relatives do care about me, and they've said that I must come over and make sure that I stay in touch with everyone. I was quite touched by this.
Anyway W and I went on to enjoy a really, really good party.
