I can't seem to stop crying. Josh just phoned (he never calls in the morning, but had been tied up with work last night). Ash seemed to think he must've been returning my SOS call that I didn't make - he had no way of knowing there was a problem. I just sobbed into the phone. He feels bad. Moreso about our friend being in hospital than anything. My baby kitty, Blu, just keeps snuggling up to me - he is just what I need.
I do hope she burns out with BF. Its not that I really don't like him- he is just a nothing personality. Doesn't even talk to me when he comes over. Never wants to do anything but play video games. By contrast, her ex BF is on nearly full scholarship, has an incredible future and is SO personable. I miss him terribly and his family. Never mentioned this but he stopped by to see me the other day. He knew she was not home (they still message). He was returning a video game of hers but wanted to catch up. He is moving away for the summer for a job in Banff. I am so proud of him. Says he would love to visit more - feels like I'm his second mom but knows Ash's BF is jealous of him (yes, Ash has said this).
She says she'll come and help with Ryan. She knows its the only way she gets a car - I pay her car insurance and expenses. I just made her aware that if she moves out she has no health insurance - dental and pharmacy - she is on her own.
Maybe I just need to get a grip. She is my baby. I don't want this to happen but its inevitable. I can't believe the nerves it touched though.
I'm going to go to my minis show out of town then to hospital.
