for better,for worse,for (what)ever

[seekpeaceofmind]

My GAL has been faltering in the last few weeks - it feels hard sometimes to make plans and, honestly, I'm a bit of a homebody normally so I don't necessarly want to be "on the go" a lot. I'm a true introvert. I deal with a lot of people at work and need down time to recharge. Plus, I was fixated on packing H's stuff and thinning out the clutter in the house, but depressed about it at the same time, so I got kind of stuck there for a couple of weekends.

Anyway - this is the busiest w/e I've had in ages. I am taking a training class for hospice volunteers that included all day Sat and this afternoon. I'm not sure if I am going to actually volunteer or not, but need the training first to decide. I went to a symphony performance last night w/a friend who had extra tickets and got a group of women together so we had dinner and the concert, wh was nice. (BTW - Classical music is food for your brain - learned that in a depression recovery seminar I am attending on Tues eve for 8 wks.) Tonight is church annual meeting - I go to UU services and the group of regulars is very small so everyone there now feels like a friend. So, no moping (well, not much) this w/e and time to start making plans for a good summer.

H came over yesterday to "see the dogs" and get some stuff. He called on Fri to see if it wld be ok so I told him I would be at training. I left him a note that explained what I expected him to take and what he has to clear out so that I don't have to deal with it and that he needs to schedule with me what day he is going to do the "big move." (He will need to come with a truck.) I don't intend to be here for that. He left me a note that thanked me for getting his stuff organized and said it was thoughtful. Idiot.

But - maybe I'm the idiot - I have this hope that this action of separating our stuff into "yours/mine" and seeing our house getting "staged" for sale will be some kind of wake up call for him, even tho I have no reason to think he is at all sentimental or still tied to me/our home. This is his 3rd time around and he walked out of the previous 2 M w/ virtually nothing each time. There is a few boxes worth of stuff he has kept each time that he just keeps schlepping from one place to another. I am giving him more of our "mutual" things than he got out of the last 2.