We live in Bedfordshire, and am in agreement that it may take time for a sale. I'm not sure how I feel about that-its difficult to live in the house that we bought together when we were so excited about getting married. Because he's just staying with his dad temporarily, most of his belongings are here too. I am still sleeping in our bed. The house just feels so sad and empty.
I just feel that I need to move on and GAL but its hard while I'm living here. I'm also a little angry that I find myself in this situation. I am envious of my friends who are seemingly in perfect relationships. I hate seeing couples when I'm out because I'm so jealous!! Is this normal?!
I am angry at my H who says he just fell out of love with me a few months after we married, then has been stringing me along for the past year saying that he has been trying to make things work and now knows they can't. How can people's emotions change just like that?? He is so insistent that its over that I believe him. He is a stubborn man and once he decides something that tends to be it. I am tending to think that he couldnt have loved me that much to start with if his feelings change so easily.
And I'm starting to agree with his that the depression was bought on by his feelings of guilt that he was no longer happy in the relationship. He does not seem so depressed now he has gone. He seems relieved. He is insistent that he has changed as a person, we have grown apart and he doesnt feel that we're right for each other. I feel that he emotionally disconnected himself when he moved out for a week last year, and he never really came back. He says he wants me to move on quickly so I can have the wonderful life I deserve. I want him to be happy, but I struggle to understand how he can be so in love and want to spend the rest of his life with me, to this.
Sorry for ranting
Lea xxx
Me-26 H-27 T-10 years M-20 months First bomb-Feb 07 Second bomb-March 08
