CBK, I agree with all that John has said above. In your post you stated that if this marriage doesn't work then it is your fault. Sorry buddy but that is not the truth. It takes two people to make the marriage work and if your W isn't willing to put any effort in on her side then it will be her fault, not yours. Don't put that kind of pressure on yourself.
I know you are getting ready to get on a flight, go and have fun, get your mind of your sitch for a while, it will help you. Maybe this will give you time to think about how you can begin to detach and act as if. This is what you really need right now. The emotions are still running strong on your end, as you are so new into it. Believe me, many have walked your shoes and continue to walk your shoes on a daily basis, you are not alone. It will get easier.
