CBK, I just read your posts from last night. I tried to think back at how I was one month after bomb. You got the double wammy bomb followed by OM. I really feel for you but you have no choice but to get a hold of your emotions. I am so glad that you are leaving the house. The time away will do you some good. You need to really concentrate on yourself while you are with your friends. I would suggest total darkness as it pertains to your W. Not for DBing purposes but for you. To be quite honest I don't think you are ready to DB....you are chasing continuously. I am not bashing you here....we all did it to varying degrees. The positive in all this is you are in the early stages of the battle and have found the book and board rather early. Maybe you should go dark from the board for a while.....take the time to go dark from your W also.....you need to detach. I am sorry if all this sounds like a cliché. Things will get better with time but you need to really get a grip of your emotions around your W especially. Have a good trip!
