Drowning still - 23 years, feel like I am sinking

[CBK]

Well, just got back from the neighborhood party. It actually went better than I thought. I was very social with the neighbors and W seemed to only hand around a couple of her friends. I was getting ready to change my clothes to "warmer" and W wanted to go home. We did. She was laying in bed, and I went in and said I love you, I miss you and you are beautiful and kissed her on the forehead and walked out. She was so distant to me tonight , I figured what the hey - this is Jeff's idea, and I walked right out afterwards. I am thinking about going back to hang with the guys - why not. Will see.

Hang tuff all.

CBK