Drowning still - 23 years, feel like I am sinking

[CBK]

So close, but so far... Sandi, don't get mad at me :-)

Went downstairs and W asked a simple question, can't even remember what it was - but I slipped into my R talk - not as bad as before, but backslid a little bit. I am so glad I am taking off tomorrow for Philadelphia, I need to get out of this house. I wish I would have exteneded my stay to go to my office in VA, may still try and do that and see if I an change my flight. Right now, I know I need to be out of this house, way to much emotion floating around...

The bizarre thing is that there seem to be several of us posters in the same boat this week, must be something in the air or water! :-) I need to get through this day - hour by hour - I know. I can't keep backsliding. My DB coach said it the best - I have no R currency, in fact, I am in the hole right now, and there is no bank to borrow from.

I am glad I am so hopeful still - but have to admit, when I read some posts, I get bummed because I feel their pain as well. This board is so different, we may never meet face-to-face, but I consider you all friends. We have shared a lot, probably way more than we would have if we ever did meet face-to-face!

Thank you all - you mean the world to me.

CBK