I was a little apprehensive as I went to a more advanced yoga class today with a new teacher. And I loved it!!!
It was a combination Hatha/Vinyasa class. I could not have done this class a year or two ago. Actually if I hadn't started working out again and attended two yoga classes this week - I may not have had strength and endurance to make it! It felt like I achieved a milestone today!
Oh and that lower back/hip thing - all gone!
I am also feeling better about my diet. I hate the verb diet - so I never go on diets b/c as soon as I start - I feel an overwhelming urge to eat every forbidden food on the diet list! LOL! I have switched to healthy food - and tasty food. For example lunch was smoked salmon and asiago cheese with 1/2 a TJ demi-baggette and fruit. And umm...and a Haagen Daaz almond chocolate covered thingy...
I am still blocked when it comes to writing...not a good thing in my line of work... Things flow slowly. And there is a fear of failure - that I am going to write or say the wrong thing... I know a big part of it is tiredness. When I am tired, I second guess myself more, have a tougher time commiting to a position, and of course that leads to procrastination to avoid making decisions.... No amount of yoga and exercise is a substitute for a good old fashioned vacation.
On a different note, I am more relaxed about some things in my personal life. GF pushed for daily night walks and yoga 2-3 times a week - when I suggested yoga once/week and a walk once/week. GF has flaked out - and ironically - I am sticking to the schedule she suggested. And well - that's okay. She has her way of handlling her angst. And most people aren't as anal about follow through on commitments as I am. I will enjoy her company when she feels like joining me. She helped me jump start things and I am fine motivating myself to these things on my own. I don't sense an angst pot filler here - but we will see if I post about it with angst association in time.
I also like the article Barb posted. It validates so many things I have come to believe about potential P type of R's. I feel receptive to exploring R's that may lead to potential P type of R's if I should bump into someone that zings my hormones. And I have no problem with moving slowly - I am a patient person. I would rather go slow and find a gem when I am 50 than end up with a jerk today.
All in all - life is good! Just wish I didn't have work hanging like an albatross around my neck. But I suppose it is better than the panic that comes with no work on my desk!
