Drowning still - 23 years, feel like I am sinking

[CBK]

Thanks all - I am going to take the job op further, nothing to lose.

I am slipping today, friggin roller coaster. I miss my W so much - I see her so close to the R, but then so distant. I am a mess right now. Need to take my dog to the vet. That will keep my mind off of my R that is falling apart at the seams...

I know, don't feel sorry for myself, but at this moment, this is where I am damnit... I HATE this.

CBK