Supermom and the Brighter Tomorrow

[JennyF]

Well I guess I've fallen off of the DB radar around here!
I was thinking that I should probably should just stop posting altogether since I'm moving on so to speak. But then I thought...wait....I've been on these for 6 months. For about 4 of those six months I thought I was DB'ing my butt off and was so emmersed in saving my marriage, that I probably wasn't DB'ing well at all. At least not as well as I could have been.
But as soon as I accepted this as the current reality...something switched and it was full steam ahead for myself...GAL at it's best. And suddenly I'm probably only just now REALLY DB'ing!
So why am I saying this? Repeating the same crap I've said before...because I know how many people out there are obsessed right now with saving their marriages and who are looking at these boards every minute of every day for some kind of sign that THEIRS will be the one it will work out for. First of all...more power to you. But also...I don't believe my story is done just because I'm moving on with acceptance. I've seen a lot of people move on from the boards and we never really know how things turned out. So I'm going to continue to journal and anyone who cares can check in now and then. And who knows...maybe in 6 months or a year all of a sudden my dear old H will decide he's made the biggest mistake of his life! LOL...yeah right.

On that note...if anyone is still interested...
I've been busy this week. Lawyers, bank accounts, real estate agents. I'm hoping that we'll have our financial doc's sorted out and the house on the market by the end of next week.

My D & S spent a couple days with H at his new house this week and they're with him today. I heard OW's name come out of my D's mouth for the first time this week...that was like nails on a chalkboard.
Tonight is my H's best friends 30th b-day party. EVERYONE but me will be there...including OW. Nice.
I am starting to catch wind though of just what all of our friends really think about H. I shouldn't have assumed everyone was just accepting him and moving on. They all think he's a dumba$$ and can seem as a ticking time bomb. I just wish they had the balls to tell him what they really think.

H gave me 1/3 of the money he owes me for the mortgage and the overdraft. THEN I find out yesterday that he told my best friends he just bought himself a 42" TV! WTF?

Friends are really starting to see what a fantasy world he's living in. While I try not to put too much stock in what others think...it is validating to know that they feel this way. It's only a matter of time before H starts to feel this too. I hope.

So for anyone still following and still looking for hope...stay tuned! I'll let you know how this whole detachment and GAL really works!

Well, while the kids are with H today I'm off to attack my house to get it ready for the market!
J~