Cat makes a good point. You might also be able to get a good referral from the local women's center. They have helped me alot; also had a divorce support group and free IC for me and/or the kids if we wanted it.
The other point that I didn't mean to breeze over.....
You are an amazing, loving, intelligent, WORTHWHILE woman--no one can ever take that away from you. Your h is an a$$, and the courts are archaic.
Look in the mirror and know that you can hold your head up high for your actions, choices and decisions.
