sally)))))))))))))))))) don't you dare call yourself worthless again! with 3kids under 6 you are an amazing woman! that is a lot of work! you choose that path for your kids best interests.
sorry honey, this leg of the trip is so hard, but it will get easier as you step in faith hon. Yes, it'd be easy to say 'let him do it' but also, as you say, something we need to do to be done right (I didnt' want the D either but I found the mediator, didn't trust stbx to do an extensive research).
It won't always be like this hon, you will become stronger, will keep you in my prayers|)))) Please remember to go see a L before you go to the first mediation meeting. A mediator will make things fair but will not look for your best interest. I found a group from a bar association of Ls who provided a first consultation for 35$, look for something like that, just one consultation can make a world of difference when the time comes. I even looked at craigslist.com and there were a few who offered 1 first free consultation.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.