Another new topic! already? Here we go

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I picked the whistle emoticon because I don't know what you'd use it for, what it means. Maybe y'all can tell me.

so I haven't been here for a while, which I think means things are going OK. The separation is hard. To refresh your memory, she took a job in AR, we bought a house there where she lives with my daughter. My son and I still live in CO and I plan on moving to AR after my son graduates H.S. He is a junior, so I have just over a year before I move.

If I move. I really like it here, in Denver, downtown. I need to know for sure that my W and I can and WANT to make it together before I move. I think I will, but I haven't committed 100%.

I have been calling AR everynight, to wish my D good night and to talk to my W. It was really feeling like a duty, and I often felt worse after the call then before, so I told them that we didn't have to talk nightly. I called last night but only talked to my D (kind of weird. Kind of like when my W was w/ OM and would call and talk to kids but not me, but reversed. I dont' want to do things out of revenge. I don't think it was. Probably more in my head than hers). Tonight she called me. Interupted dinner and a DVD that my son and I were enjoying. I called her back later. The goodbyes are hard on me. That's why I say we don't have to call daily, and that I'm not 100% sure I want to go to AR.

I have to know I'll be happy before I go.

Meanwhile, I don't feel I can contribute to anyone elses sitch right now, but I'm thinking trying may help both me and the other person. My Mom called me a couple of days ago and told me my god son and his W are divorcing because she is having an A. I haven't been much of a godfather to this guy, but now maybe I can help.

I think of many of y'all often, and really hope you are doing well. It's hard to catch up with those of you who post a lot. I'll try. I really hope you find happiness - whatever that means. I feel I'm close to it, but it's tricky.

That's me. I'll surf a bit now, and try to catch up with some of you. Maybe try to help a newbie.

It's yours. Own it. Feel it. Live it. don't shrink from it. Embrase it.