Better late than never?

[jon2911]

Very interesting night last night. W called about 7:00 when I was with friends at dinner. I missed the call, but she texted "I really want to tell you something". I ducked out real quick and called her. She said she had some sweet potato fries in the oven (one of our favorites), and was about to watch Grey's Anatomy and drink some Sangria. I told her I was out to dinner with friends, but would call her later. She sounded strangely unhappy to hear that.

Back at dinner, I couldn't stop thinking about the call. It sounded just like one of our date nights. And when we long-distance dated we would have phone dates and watch a show together. Maybe a chance? I didn't make it home in time for the show, and when I called she was very distant. We only talked for about 10 minutes, and I fell asleep wondering what the heck it all meant. We had tentative plans to meet up this weekend, but I assumed those were off.

About 1:00 AM my phone woke me up, and I noticed she'd been calling over the last hour. I picked up, and she said she really missed me, but didn't want to feel that way, and had cut the phone call short. Also, it made her mad that I was out with friends, because she's having trouble finding friends in Houston. She can't meet me this weekend because her dad's getting out of the hospital from surgery, and she needs to take care of him (boy, that sounds like fun).

Then I conducted a little experiment (shhh, don't read this Jeff)
We had some great phone sex. She really, really enjoyed it and even had an O, which hasn't happened before over the phone. Then we talked for a little while about old college friends and such, before she realized that she was being too nice and the alien came back. She said sex is our only connection now. Well, I guess that goes with what Michelle says, it's a connection nonetheless.

She ended the convo by telling me how mad she is that I respond when her friends contact me. That I lie and make her look bad. I told her that I'm honest with them about my mistakes, and it's not my intention to make her look bad (what makes her look bad is that she's cut off contact with all of them). She only talks to her family and a couple friends, who don't know me and are supportive of her decision. None of our old college friends support her decision, and that ticks her off. She's also ticked that my Seminary is letting me graduate in spite of my issues. I must be lying to them also. Again, I'm in counseling there, being honest with them, and they want to see me finish. It's actually been really good to have one class there this semester. So, it seems like she's unhappy that I'm getting stronger and she can't control me anymore. But where's the balance on that?