jeeeeeeepers

you just need to day it once

I am not suggesting anything.

I am going to be blunt

I know this will hurt but it feels like you are needless hurting here

#1...of course there are conditions on love...you hurt my kids...gone...you violate me or cross clear boundaries...you are gone

loving unconditionally is what we do for our children

it sounds like you were doing what you were doing to get love back
and
that isn't nothing

I get that this is your struggle but there is something fishy sounding here...
perhaps it is the fact that I was "followed" by the guy I dated...perhaps it is because there are things that just don't ring true

post away
ask away

you will never move beyond this if you don't realize that she clearly wasn't the one for you

if you don't look at it as maybe being somehting that was good for its run but that its run is over

and

I understand you are a fireman
how long have you been on the job?

I know lots of fireman and I asked about the way you describe things because I have to tell you...it doesn't seem right to me

perhaps this is because I am a little leery about the guy I dated following me around here
maybe it is something else

but i have to say that no fireman I know thinks of anything but the fire when they are in it

and all these things together give me a sort of a skeptical view of what you are writing

i never suggested you bad mouthed the person you were saying
nor would I ever suggest doing so
there is a truth that feels missing

maybe I am just a little nervous