Are you recomending that I don't post? I have considered it already.
This whole time, I have not put blame on her for what has happened. I have not badmouthed her in anyway. (at least not intentionally that I have been aware of) I have not asked anyone posting in this thread to look her up or get involved in that.
What I have said, is I Know what I am suppose to do. I know why. But I am having trouble making my heart give up the fight. That is my strtuggle here.
I never looked for validation in what I did for her. I did it because I wanted to do them. And if need be, I will survive being alone once again. But I miss her dearly and it still hurts. When we fall in love are we not suppose to love unconditional"? With all of our hearts...not halfassing our way through a relationship? Well, I gave my whole heart. So now I don't feel like I have my heart back.
