if you've read my other thread you know my story.....I'm in need of someone to talk some sense into me. I remembered an old yahoo account that I had about a year ago, and in my thoughts of OM I went there to see if there was anything and then to delete it. I've deleted it now, but I saw the messages....of course he had sent a couple of messages that made my heart break...I know he is hurting and I want to reach out to him. I've been laying in bed all day holding myself back. I know I need to do something to keep myself busy .......when will this end....I'm starting to wonder if you really CAN move on after an A. Can I ever love again....I'm really starting to wonder....... I know I know...it is wrong, God does NOT want me to do this.....I know I have to give it time....all those things don't seem to make this better. I understand h4h's wife and cbk's wife and jeff's wife....I am them.....maybe just tell me again what I already know.....I need SOMETHING or I am going to message him....Friday's was our time together. It's funny but I think I found out that he lied to me about something...saw other girls on this facebook thingy that he said he took off of his yahoo....that doesn't deter me, makes me even more want to talk to him to straighten that issue up......this is so crazy
