The race was fabulous. Weather was even better! Swim went perfect, but I couldn't get into a groove on the bike and just coasted in on the run since my personal best was out of reach and I just wanted to enjoy it.
I actually feel good that I was able to let go of my ego when it became clear that I couldn't make my goal time and have the good sense to relax and enjoy!
SD
Me 41 W 41 Kids: S9 S7 Married 16 years Bomb dropped 2/2/07 Still living together! current thread
The race was fabulous. Weather was even better! Swim went perfect, but I couldn't get into a groove on the bike and just coasted in on the run since my personal best was out of reach and I just wanted to enjoy it.
I actually feel good that I was able to let go of my ego when it became clear that I couldn't make my goal time and have the good sense to relax and enjoy!
SD
Me 41 W 41 Kids: S9 S7 Married 16 years Bomb dropped 2/2/07 Still living together! current thread
I actually feel good that I was able to let go of my ego when it became clear that I couldn't make my goal time and have the good sense to relax and enjoy!
Good for you that you didn't become so focused on a goal that you lost sight of what was relevant - the relaxation and enjoyment.
Hi AG, I've mostly just been recovering and catching up since the race. I'm a bit hobbled due to blisters on my heals. My own darned fault since I ran without socks!
Of course, Mon. was a "things fall apart" kind of day at work, but by Wed. all was back on course and today was even better as it is a holiday in Europe and thus a perfect get organized day for me since most of my stress comes from our European operations.
On the home front, my W finally asked me to pay for the things on her list. I told her I would give her some money, but that we needed to talk. W: about what? SD: About life, the future, plans... W: Are the things on that list not "life"? SD: I left you $XX, we can talk later, I have to go to work now.
That was yesterday, I figure there is no hurry to force the issue, but at least she knows that I am going to bring up finances and the future again. Best that she is not complete caught off guard if I want it to go amicably!
On a perhaps unrelated note, she wore a tank top and underwear to bed tonight, compared to her usual fuddy-duddy nightgown. Whatever! She has been back on the exercise/diet bandwagon, so maybe she just is feeling more self-confident. Probably a good thing for us all!
Otherwise, going for another lake swim and long ride this weekend. Kids and I will have a bbq with some neighbors here on Sat. W is going out with a friend, so I will host it.
TTFN, SD.
Me 41 W 41 Kids: S9 S7 Married 16 years Bomb dropped 2/2/07 Still living together! current thread
One more thing, S8 started to say something about my not getting W anything for her b'day last week. Started in a playful way, but he caught the look on my face and stopped. W was sitting next to him, but was interacting with S7, so I don't think she caught it.
I am a bit torn on whether to bring up a convo with him or not. On the one hand, I know he is a bit confused by the sitch, on the other, I don't have much to add to what he already knows. He gets tons of love from me and knows that I will be there for him as long as I live and breathe, so not sure what else there is to do or say at this point.
Any thoughts?
SD
Me 41 W 41 Kids: S9 S7 Married 16 years Bomb dropped 2/2/07 Still living together! current thread
Glad to hear that work ended up going smoothly as the week progressed. Hopefully there will be a lot more European holidays - some countries seem to almost shut down in the summer.
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: Are the things on that list not "life"?
Now that is quite an attitude... Not sure what to advise... I think she is use to getting her way and shutting down convo's she doesn't like with her tone... I am guessing in the past, you responded by letting it go when she employed "the tone."...
I find that when you first set a boundary in situations where one person is use to operating that way - it usually gets much nastier before it gets better. I guess when you do move forward with the D, it will be nasty...and you will have to ride it out...
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On a perhaps unrelated note, she wore a tank top and underwear to bed tonight, compared to her usual fuddy-duddy nightgown.
Do you think she dressed for you?
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Otherwise, going for another lake swim and long ride this weekend. Kids and I will have a bbq with some neighbors here on Sat. W is going out with a friend, so I will host it.
Sounds like you have a nice and relaxing weekend ahead. Have fun!
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I am a bit torn on whether to bring up a convo with him or not.
I didn't have this complication myself... Kids are really are so perceptive. When I garden, all these little ones come and chat with me - I get an earful of stuff that I don't think their parents realize they even notice!
I may be way off base, but perhaps you do need to move forward with the D for your kids. S8 started the convo playfully and picked up when to stop... It may be he is tip-toeing around tension. Not a good habit to get into...
On a different perspective, my mother filed for D when I was 9. I remember I had a very nervous stomach and use to feel ill. And I kept it to myself and didn't talk to anyone. She stopped the proceedings at that time, so all was well in my world at that time.
Anyway - good luck handling the situation with S8.
This might be one of those "life" subjects you and W need to discuss. Ultimately, you and W will need to decide what to tell the children and when to tell them. If anything, she should be amenable to having this discussion.
Good luck with the talk. It will be uncomfortable, for sure, but nothing you cannot handle!
Best, --Chris
Me: 40 She: 31 S: 5 D: 3 Married: 8 years (05 DEC 99) Blow-up: 02 JUN 07 Piecing (More like Ostriching): 22 FEB 08
