Drowning still - 23 years, feel like I am sinking

[CBK]

I do think every sitc' is a different. I remember my W saying that I am suffocating her when I tried to comfort her - she is in an entirely different world right now, and one I cannot understand. I have chosen my path on the OM and in the end, this may be my downfall of repairing our M - as I listen to WDID, her H is having some issues, those in PA's take a long time to get over the hurt and trust issues. Today, I am willing to work on this R, if W continues to talk to OM, she is making her choices and if/when she comes out of the fog, I may be there or not. I am hopeful that I will be. As those of us on the board know, when OM or OW is involved with a PA, it is painful, feelings of inadequacy, failure, the like. I haven't even started working on that for me - I am still at stage 1 of DBing and not doing a great job at that yet. I will master the steps, and, like I said, am going to fight this battle.

Peace,

CBK