Stronger - but still confused

[Snow White]

Its hard to explain, everything is easier, I eat when I want, the house is cleaner, D is better behaved because she is getting all the attention, it is calmer, more peaceful. I don't need him there. I just don't like not having someone there. I can function perfectly, I just don't want to. I feel like I want to replace him as soon as possible if he isn't coming back because what I need is companionship.

He picked up my wrestling tickets today. I did ask earlier in the week(when he was claiming to be moving home) if he wanted to go. He promised to pick them up. He called this morning to tell me he did pick them up and where they were. I asked if he was coming or not his answer "maybe". I asked for a response by noon.

H - Why who wants them?

Me - I will still be going just want to find someone for the 2nd ticket

H - Who?

Me - the possibilities are endless

H - X(the guy who bought me a beer a month and a half ago that he harps on constantly) or Y ( a guy at work who said hello to me on my facebook wall)? His jealously issues are ridiculous he can go on for days because someone said hi, or months because they bought a beer.

Me - No, I was actually going to flip an email down to the bridge to see if anyone was interested in coming with me for the second ticket. (I work for Customs and there are about 200 officers down at the bridge closest to me)

He contacted me at 12 - while I was on lunch to say I might have to work late on an action plan call me. So when I did it was I might have to work late tomorrow but give me another hour and I will let you know (making it 2:00 - I asked for time to find someone else).

I thought about it after I hung up and sent him a text. If you WANTED to go you would tell your work you had tickets to this event already and you could not stay late. Since you were undecided if you even wanted to go before this came up why don't you just forget about it and I will find someone.

There is one more thing I am concerned about. I got my cell bill yesterday which means H's will be in today likely. It will contain the first 11 days after he moved out. I am scared to see what it holds. It may be the final nail in the coffin.

So the GAL - its wrestling - I will go alone if I have to. I also moved some stuff around in my garage, I will be parking my car inside it on Saturday night after wrestling so H does not know when I come home. Don't have much else planned 2 days goes quick, D is having her first friend come over to the house Saturday afternoon so it should give me a little room to relax.